On page 29 we see Augustine wrestling with the sins of his boyhood and how it has caused a fall in his life. His reasoning behind these sinful actions is that he "had no motive for [his] wickedness except wickedness itself." He loved sin and treated it as an idol. There was no good inside of what he was doing other then creating temporary feelings that left a want, a addiction to something of only worldly nature. He says that " I loved my fall, not the object which I had fallen but my fall itself." Its not the end goal that was so desirable but the steps that lead him to a dark abyss of sexual impurity, theivery, and a distance from the Lord. I too can relate to Augustine as the more I have fallen into a temptaition the harder it is to resisit and to stop and to admit what I'm doing is actually worng because in a perveretd sense it seems right. Though there is redemption for everyone including a sinner like me and I enjoyed reading Augustine work through the many questions one has and speak of his own relationship with God.
I commented on Dallas and Daniel's post.
I really enjoyed being able to relate with St. Augustine in this book. Anyone could read this and find something that they've experienced firsthand.
ReplyDeleteIn the way we justify that our sin is good, we attempt to justify why the right thing to do isn't the "right" thing for us. So many times we can chase our own tail and resist the Lord and His call on us.
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